We are officially a one-car family now. I’ve been wanting to do it for a while, in order to simplify our lives and cut costs so we can live more comfortably on our income.
I am free to bring Alan to work in the morning any day I’d like, as long as I pick him up in the afternoon. Turns out, I was too lazy to do that even a single time last week, so we were without a car during the day all week.
It was weird. I had car withdrawal. I felt panicky, lonely, trapped. But because this is what always happens to me when I withdraw from something, I had the wisdom to know it would pass. And it did.
This is the second car-less week, and so far it has been lovely. We spent the past two whole days being home. I felt free. I just did my daily work, spent time with my girls, and leisurely went about the day. I was able to make meals and keep on top of dishes and laundry with ease. Because I had the whole day to do it, I was not stressed out (until dinnertime, at which I am always stressed out).
I should mention that I also do not have a computer during the day. The computer I had before was my dad’s, and I decided to give it back to him so I could rid myself of its constant lure. I wanted to spend my days more mindfully, more present and engaged in my daily life. I use Alan’s laptop when he comes home from work. So far it’s working swell, and I’ve spent more time reading books and doing creative things rather than running for the computer screen one hundred times per day.
I think most people would see these choices of deprivation. But I see them differently. I see them as choices of freedom–freedom to be with myself and my kids, freedom to tend to my work and what matters most to me, freedom from the lure of always going somewhere and doing something else.
Now let’s see how long I can keep up that positive outlook.