Sometime over the last several years I stopped writing New Year’s resolutions. I changed my mind and made one this year. It is harder to fail when you only have one goal to make.
Instead of the writing up the traditional list of resolutions I decided that at the end of each year, I would look back and celebrate my achievements. I wanted to appreciate whatever my journey had been in the past year, reflect, learn, and move on. Here goes my list from 2011.
This year I:
1. Got fired for the first time in my life, because of my inability to keep my mouth shut and deal with difficult people in a mature way. I suppose that makes me a difficult person, too. Therefore I will never again react in anger over email.
2. Lost the money I made from the job that I got fired from–because I spent it on orthodontics that I had to quit because I was allergic to the material. After holding a grudge for a while I learned how to laugh and let it go.
3. Struggled with the notion of my ticking biological clock, increasing gray hairs, and the question of whether or not I should have another baby. And suddenly I realize that it doesn’t matter; whatever happens is alright. I don’t always have to know.
4. Celebrated one year of working for my home health care agency with a job that I love and gives me much more than extra income.
5. Slowly learning to love myself for who I am and who I have always been, and at the same time accepting that not everybody will love or appreciate all of me–and that is okay.
6. After my hardest year as a parent so far, I have learned to love and forgive my parents for their own parenting struggles. I truly understand now that they did the best they could, and I love them for that. This is the hardest job in the world.
7. Fell in love with my “new” mini-van.
8. Had my first night without children in 8 years–with my husband!
9. Learned that the key to my happiness is to nurture myself and that I need nurturing every day in various forms.
10. Felt deeply grateful for those who love and support me, especially in rough waters.
Happy New Year.