For as long as I remember I’ve practiced “speak before I think”. I want to undo at least 80% of the words I say. They are usually repetitive and useless and impulsive.
I wish I would always double check and make sure that everything I say is 100% true and not make assumptions, change stories, or say things from my imagination that are only true in my head.
When I am in vata excess, which I have been in for at least a month, I talk so much that I exhaust myself and others. This is my 17th blog post this month; one more post and it will be my busiest month since I started blogging 3 years ago. I think this can attest to my serious overtalking, overthinking, and generally being annoying.
I don’t want to give this any more energy by thinking or talking about it too much, but for the record, I want to be a woman of fewer words. I want the words I use to matter.
I do not want to be annoying. I want to love who I am when I talk. I want my husband to love me and not be annoyed with me. I want my mind to quiet down so I can sleep a little.