I am a new woman!

Being a better, more patient, less stressed mama will cost me about $30 a week.  I will happily exchange the gym membership I’ve been pondering for this magical little luxury: a mother’s helper.

I found my mother’s helper through Craigslist.  She is a wonderful person and already a friend.  My kids love her, I love her, she is a chef, professional nanny, and gardening pro.

She came over for the first time today.  While I tended the children’s lunches, baths, fights and art projects, my mother’s helper made a huge batch of soup for dinner tonight and for the freezer, pesto and ground basil and kale for the freezer, and helped empty out my herb garden and make use of everything in it.  She cleaned up from our lunch and from all of her cooking, and gave me the advice I needed on using my handed-down bread maker.  She even gave me a discount because I gave her soup and herbs to take home.

Now I have a clean house, happy children, happy me, and soup and fresh bread ready for dinner in an hour.

It is 4 pm and I have one whole hour in which there is nothing that I have to do.

Sweet nothing, how I have missed you!

While the kids play hide and seek, I am going to have a cup of tea and catch up on some reading.

Love.

So excited.

I am so excited.

For years I have dreamed of having a “Mother’s Helper” for all of those things I just can’t seem to get done.

Finally, I made it happen.  I found one. It’s a squeeze financially but will be well worth it in terms of stress relief for me.  I will be able to focus more on Mia’s homeschooling, which is something I am having difficulty making room for in our days.  I would like my Mother’s Helper to mainly cook, make freezer meals and snacks, and help with odd jobs such as organizing my recipes.

And wouldn’t you have it?  The gal I found has a culinary degree.  She is a nanny with many years of experience and references and seems like an overall great person.  We meet her next week.

I also decided to try doing some tutoring and paper editing like I did in college.  I posted the ad yesterday and got my first client today.

I am happy.  Good changes are so good.

Overwhelmed.

Fall and winter are vata seasons–dry and cold.  With a constitution that tends to be in vata excess, this is not the best time of year for me.  I do love the cooler weather, the quiet neighborhood, the coziness, and the fall colors.  I love sweaters and jeans and not sweating whenever I step outside.

But my mind is racing.  It utterly exhausts me. I have a gazillion ideas and things I feel I should and want to do, and overwhelmed because I don’t know where to begin.  I am worrying about a gazillion of these ideas, too.  To tame my vata excess, tonight I should have taken a nice warm bath by myself.   But instead I ate cold ice cream and went shopping for pet food.

I am overwhelmed with the demands of motherhood and I feel sometimes like there is room for nothing else in my life.  Not even homeschooling Mia, who wants a curriculum this year.  I feel pulled in so many directions, sad that I am not going to school (but also knowing it would be far too much right now), stressed about finances, feeling trapped in our upside-down house that I am desperately ready to move from, stressed about Alan’s tooth, stressed about my kids’ diets, my diet, my lack of exercise and my seeming lack of time to do any of it.

So I am going to do my affirmations.  “I am on an endless journey through eternity.  There is plenty of time.”

And here are my positive statements about what I would like to do with my life:

I exercise regularly and I love it.  I am healthy and strong and I fit my exercise into my life with ease.

I manage my finances responsibly.  I have plenty of money for needs and luxuries in my life.

I diligently work on Mia’s curriculum with her, and we enjoy it together.  I keep up.

I keep up with daily chores and my children and husband help whenever they can.

I plan meals, grocery shop within my budget, and make healthy and delicious meals that my family loves.

My children eat well and are robust and healthy.  They are happy.

Mia’s allergies disappear and she is healthy and strong.

Alan gets his tooth taken care of, pronto.

Ahhhh.  That feels better.

Goodnight.