I struggle with knowing when to speak my truth and when to keep quiet, especially when it comes from a place of deep caring. Sometimes help is unwanted, and people want to travel a particular journey a particular way without change or interruption. This is where my uncertainty sets in. Where do I draw the line between helping and intruding?
Over the years, I have learned how to fix and help things in my own life, and the natural result is wanting to share the good news with others: there is an answer for everything. I don’t believe in accepting suffering; I believe in searching, trying, and finding a new path. This is my truth; this is the path of my life. When others are not interested or don’t believe it, I think I take it personally–as if they are not interested or believe in the very essence of who I am. Clearly, this is my own problem to work on, and this is where my Louise Hay affirmation comes in: I love and accept myself, just as I am.
What I am learning now, and it is a painful lesson, that my own truth is just that: my own. If someone else asks or wants to hear about my truth, I will share it, and it is a wanted gift. If someone doesn’t ask and I still give it, then it is an unwanted gift–at least, sometimes. I have given too many unwanted gifts. Perhaps I have also depended too much on this so-called gift-giving; I’ve perhaps used it to fuel my self-worth. Who am I if I have nothing to give? This is the root of something bigger. I love and accept myself, just as I am.
Knowing when and how to speak is a product of the throat Chakra. I am working on strengthening it and will eventually be better able to judge how and when to speak. Self worth is a part of the solar plexus Chakra, and I think that needs some work, too. There is always room for improvement, and there is always a new avenue waiting for us. All we have to do it be open to it.