Life is funny.

I just spent a couple of weeks at the top of a hill, and last night, I rolled down from it at super speed.  The crash was triggered by an unexpected event, related to being hungry and tired and saying things I shouldn’t have said. Life is a roller-coaster.  Although I find myself, on average, flying higher than ever before, I nonetheless come crashing down like I always have.  I am not bi-polar (I’ve actually checked), but sometimes I wonder.  Does everyone have these highs and lows like I do?  Oh, what I wouldn’t give to have long-term stability with my moods like my rock-steady husband does.

The good thing about my low points is that I usually come out of them having learned something important and perhaps even made peace with something troublesome.  And, usually I do not self-destruct and it ends up yielding to improvement in an area of my life that could use some help.  When faced with a low period, I usually have a strong need to check out of society for a bit, neglect housework, and put my kids in front of Netflix.  But not for more than a few days.  I promise.

Healing and learning are hard work, but worthwhile work. What I’ve learned in the many lows I’ve had in my life is this: Don’t run from it.  Embrace the suffering.  Learn. Heal. Move on.

And I won’t forget the most important thing I need to do right now: LOVE MYSELF.  That’s the hardest thing sometimes.

So, this summarizes what I am doing today (or at least I am trying to)–trying to get back on that horse.

4 thoughts on “Life is funny.

  1. I think that most women have highs and lows like this. The book “A Woman’s Worth” by Marianne Williamson helped me to understand a lot about my moods as a woman.

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