I have been feeling particularly ungrounded over the past few days, caught in a whirlwind of excitement and ideas. Along with that comes difficulty sleeping, anxiety, and wishing I could fake sick so I didn’t have to do the dishes or make food. Routine is out the window. I have very little focus. This is vata-excess, again.
Things I am currently obsessed with:
Being simultaneously excited and terrified of starting school in a month and a half
Feng Shui, and wanting to set up my whole house according to it. Currently, there is no budget for that, so patience is a must…and that’s a tall order right now.
New foods and recipes and extreme boredom with the same old.
Fantasizing about the house that I want to have built for us someday…someday.
I will start school in November. For the next five years, I will work toward my Master’s degree and state licensure as a drug counselor/marriage and family therapist/clinical counselor. It feels like this is a new baby, 5 years from birth to sending it off to Kindergarten–consuming much of my life and energy and requiring more life balance than I currently have.
Assuming that I live long enough to reap the rewards of a satisfying and interesting career, earn enough money to pay my student loan in a timely fashion, and assuming that I am able to balance my life and be the mother/wife/person I want to be in the meantime, I believe this will pay off eventually. I am actually pretty excited to learn about all the stuff I am going to learn about. I do feel that I am answering my calling, that this is what I am supposed to do, and that now is the time. Following my heart has usually lead to good things, so I am trusting that this is the case this time, too, despite the very large price tag of this heart-following adventure.
On another note, I am out of my usual multi-vitamin/mineral supplement and need a new one because I am no longer a person who needs prenatal vitamins. I’d love any suggestions you have.