Places I would live

I have always loved the idea of newness and change, and frequently want to move.  I’ve always wanted to see as many parts of the world as possible and live in different cultures, or at least in different places.  Since this is not currently a realistic option in my life, I am sitting in the same house I’ve lived in for 13 years (which has been lovely), thinking about all the places I would live if the opportunity arose. I wonder what else is out there that I don’t know about yet?

1. Portland, ME and/or OR

2. Vermont

3. Near any major mountain range in the US

4. Santa Fe

5. Vancouver, BC

6. Labrador, Newfoundland

7. Alaska, summertime only

8. Southern California, anywhere

9. Near Shenandoah National Park or any other national park

20. Montana

21. Colorado

22. Denmark, islands or in/around Copenhagen

23. France, anywhere

24. Beaver Island, MI

25. St. Croix/Taylors Falls, MN and WI

26. Eau Claire, WI (although I actually did live there, but would move there again!)

27. Linden Hills, Minneapolis

28. Viroqua, WI

29. Maiden Rock, WI

30. South shore area of Lake Superior, WI

31. San Fransisco area

32. Italian countryside

33.  English countryside

34. Irish countryside

So it’s not the most exciting or exotic list, but they are places I am drawn to for whatever reason.  Maybe someday I will get my wish and try out another place for a while.

Thinking

Things I am thinking about today:

How hard I have been on myself, and how worried I have been about things that are really just fine

That I am actually still pretty young and healthy and if we did want another baby, I could actually handle it

That I strongly dislike obligations of any kind, and this makes it hard for me to stay committed to my very organized and obligatory religion–even though the spiritual part of me wants to be a part of it

That above all, I need to be free to be happy

That I love walking in my neighborhood when the kids are at school and the streets are peaceful and serene

That I love where I live and feel so blessed that I was put here, in a place where my needs are met with ease and that I feel safe and secure

That I love music and dancing when no one is looking, or at least only if my kids are looking, because it makes me feel happy and alive

That it’s nice to be in a place where I am not ashamed to be myself

That I still feel very bothered by the people in my past and present who imply that I am not good enough–because gosh darnit, I AM ENOUGH! It took me 35 years to figure that out.

That I hope my kids know from the get-go that they are enough and that it is okay to be themselves and to put their gifts to use.