Since my last post, there has been action and closure. My action was not easy, but it was necessary. I am in a good place now, and ready to move forward and leave the past in the past.
The pieces are coming together for the journey I’ll be on in the coming year. I will attend my first birth in August and also begin an exciting internship for my mental health training in August. I am so excited for both, and for the new beginning that these two signify. I feel like I’ve been on one train for a long time and am now arriving at the station, ready to step onto a new train, heading in a new direction.
My internship means that my children will need some before and after school care, because Alan and I are not always able to drive and/or pick up on time every day. This will be a new and different experience for all of us, and hopefully a smooth and positive one. It’s a little hard sometimes with the notion that I’ll no longer be a stay-at-home mom like I’ve been for so long. It will be different.
Alan will be at the girls’ school 3 days a week–the same days I will be at my internship. He did not get the school administration jobs he applied for, and this is a relief for all of us, actually! It means a minimal change in our lifestyle and routine, and also that he will have Mia in his 5th grade band next year. We are all really happy about that. Having all three of my most special people at the same school is a comfort, and I know that the girls are in a good place when I am away from them.
I am back on Facebook. With new boundaries and enough personal work under my belt, I feel ready to handle it in a healthy way. I choose who and what I let into my world, and it’s that simple. It is so nice to be in touch with people who matter to me, those who are far and away, and those who inspire and support me and make me laugh!
Alan and I are in love with Portlandia. I highly recommend it for anyone needing a good laugh.
Have a good week, friends!
Mia’s last day of fourth grade is today, and I can hardly believe how much she has grown up this year. She is a confident, kind, and sweet girl, and I feel so lucky to be her mom. It has been special and fun to watch her become increasingly social and interested in her friends, and the best part is that her friends are as sweet and wonderful as she is. Sometimes I get worried that she will lose interest in me and our family unit the way kids sometimes do at this age. I am hoping that we can create something different and both family and friends can coexist in her world.
I have been applying and interviewing for internships starting in the fall. I was accepted for my top two choices, and aside feeling flabbergasted and surprised, I am extremely honored and happy about it. It will be a fantastic learning experience and prepare me for the work that I want to do after I am a licensed therapist. I will begin at Park Avenue Center this fall and intern there through the school year. After that, I will intern for the Hazelden adolescent program.
Interning and going to school will have me occupied as much or more as a full-time job, and it will be a major life adjustment for all of us. I have been a full-time caregiver of my children for ten years. Now they will both be out in the world without me for much of the week, and I will be out doing my own thing. Somehow we will have to balance school drop-offs, errands, housework, and meal preparation. How do people do that? I am so used to “doing it all” and I think the biggest change will be for me to let a lot of things go.
I am looking forward to summer, and my hope is that it is a good balance between fun and relaxation and productivity. We have a lot of house projects that we must complete this year, a pool pass and Childrens Museum pass to use, camping to do, and a family cabin to visit.
Well, that was my self-centered post of the day. We’re in Gemini right now, and this Gemini always has a lot to say during this time of year.