Today was a beautiful day, and the grief and unrest I wrote about have calmed. I have peace in my heart today, and remember that I am not entitled to people being how I want them to be. I am privileged to know them as they are, and I can choose to simply love them. I am grateful to have that love in my heart. I am grateful my parents are still in this world. I am grateful I have two sisters with whom I hope to share many more years with.
My girls and Alan made me breakfast in bed and showered me with homemade cards and a garland of paper cranes. It was absolutely lovely and delightful. I felt so loved. That love reminded me of how quickly sadness and grief can be soothed. Love is a great healer.
Alan and I made a decision tonight, and it feels good to us both. We feel settled, finally, and that we can rest about this inner turmoil we’ve had for many months. Our girls will stay at the same school next year. We canceled Anna’s enrollment to the charter school.
We will stay in the area we live in now. We will still try to sell the house and move to a bigger house, but if the house does not sell, it’s ok. The girls have their same school and their same community. It feels safe and good. Alan’s job will still change, and our house might change. But we have the same community.
Love and peace to all of you, if any of you read this anymore 🙂