Vinyl

A part of my soul that was lost years ago has been returned. Today while I was napping, Alan went out and bought a record player and some used records to add to a little collection we started recently. He showed off the new purchase by playing Simon and Garfunkel's "The Boxer." It transported me... Continue Reading →

Everything is temporary.

Since learning about my dad's illness, grief comes and goes in waves.  Sometimes the waves overcome me and make me stop what I am doing. Then I cry and feel the intensity of that wave.  Like surfing.  It goes up and comes back down again. Through this process, there has been an increasing sense of... Continue Reading →

Engagement, revisited.

On September 14, 1998, Alan asked me on a date outside the large ensemble room at the University of Wisconsin-Eau Claire.  I nervously accepted. On September 16, 1998, Alan and I had our first date and spent some time at a park on a little lake called Half Moon Lake.  On October 31, 1999, Alan proposed... Continue Reading →

Optimistic

I visited my parents today, all by myself.  No kids, no dog, no siblings.  I can't remember the last time I did that.  It was special and memorable. My dad looked and acted like his usual self and has handled things well.  He begins chemo on Monday. I feel hopeful, especially compared to yesterday.  I... Continue Reading →

Grief and joy

  Anna turned 9 years old yesterday.  The day was simple and joyful.  And thankfully, it was free from the painful sentimental feelings I normally feel on my children's birthdays. This year, Anna could choose between having a birthday party or having a weekend at a hotel with her family.  She chose the hotel, and... Continue Reading →

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