Extreme ups and downs can exist simultaneously. This is something I haven’t realized until recently.
I feel both love and joy when I think of my dad, and also grief and sadness. It’s such a complicated mixture of feelings. It takes a lot of energy to experience this and I am starting to wonder how it will affect me in the long term. My dad is doing well at this time, and my goal is to focus on that as much as I can.
I am reminiscing a great deal and thinking of wonderful things about my dad. I want to compile a little book for him that contains some of my memories. If enough time and ambition arises, I’ll include some sketches or photos, too.
Our little family had a lovely Easter weekend with baskets and colored eggs and yummy food and karaoke. And, we started something new: telling jokes along with karaoke. It is so much fun. Laughter and singing are maybe the best medicine for the soul.