A new year (almost)

Anna came down with a very sore throat and fever today, so my guess is we'll lay pretty low for New Year's Eve. Normally around this time of year, I feel pretty excited about the prospect of a new year, a fresh start, and making new year's resolutions. Although I rarely keep my resolutions, that... Continue Reading →

Inner work

As a part of the ongoing inner work and also re-joining Facebook, I've realized more fully that there are a lot of addictive tendencies I experience from day to day. My endless struggle seems to be maintaining focus and staying on the straight and narrow path. To me, this path is taking care of my... Continue Reading →

Good again

I'm feeling a lot better now. I slept through the night last night without coughing, and this is a major milestone. It means Alan can come back into our bed and things can be normal again. I go back to work next week. I am grateful for Alan, the girls, my friend Lish, my mom... Continue Reading →

A day makes a difference

What a difference a day makes. Every hour I feel better than the last. I was up and about all day today for the first time since before Thanksgiving. I can talk normally again and am coughing a bit less. Still winded and a bit fatigued, but I feel happier and more alive. I think... Continue Reading →

Getting better

Today I am up and about. Despite being short of breath and fatigued, it is good to be out of bed. Physically, I've turned the corner. Emotionally, I'm still pretty stuck in a painful and negative place. Today it's anger that's rearing its head. It has been waiting to come out, I guess--trapped in my... Continue Reading →

Still lost

I've been sick for seven days with what began as viral pneumonia and has transpired into something bacterial, so I'm just a mess of wheezing and coughing and pain. There is so much pain in my throat that it's almost intolerable. I am running out of coping skills and mental resilience. I resisted taking antibiotics... Continue Reading →

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