The one-year mastectomy anniversary came and went, and my annual health exam and labs (so far) passed in pretty good standing. My ANA titer was elevated, indicating autoimmune activity of some kind, or worst-case scenario, an early indicator of metastasis. My other lab results were good, though (some were their best ever), so the hope is that the positive ANA titer is simply due to food allergies or something else that can be remedied. Every little ailment or imperfect lab result worries me, so I’m working on letting that go and trying to enjoy the moment and have faith that things are just as they are supposed to be.
In February, I started taking group ice skating lessons. I’ve loved skating and watching figure skating my whole life, but have never taken the time to learn any real figure skating skills. Lately, I’ve been skating once or twice per week and it has been exhilarating. It makes me feel so free and good in a way that’s hard to describe. Slowly but surely, I’m learning new skills and gaining more confidence on the ice. I am still afraid of falling and this keeps me from taking risks, so ordering some knee and butt pads might be next on the agenda!
Other good things: I completed 37 rounds of TMS therapy and it changed my life. I also completed 15 sessions of QNRT. These seem to have reset my brain in a way no other therapies or exercise or any other intervention has been able to do. I am no longer depressed, I have much more energy, and can tolerate stress and working more than before. I have a genuine desire to live and am optimistic about the future. I feel so much better about myself and my life. In addition, I completed a 2-week intensive outpatient program virtually from Evergreen Psychotherapy in Colorado. Alan participated in most of it with me, and it was also a life-altering therapy that I am very grateful to have experienced. Alan and I have also completed 9 months of marital therapy, which has been incredibly wonderful. My mental health is better now than ever, and I have the gift of breast cancer to thank for that. Without falling into the darkest depths the way breast cancer helped me to do, I would likely not have tried all of these things that inevitably helped me get to a better place than I’ve ever been before. Things are good. Our marriage is strong, our family is connected, my heart is at peace.
One last, most exciting thing: I have the honor and privilege of training with my beloved, longtime practitioner, Steve Tonsager, and learning the modality he created called Intention Based Field Resonance Testing, also called Whisperology. Training begins in October and takes one year, with a lot of study and practice to which I intend to fully devote myself. My hope is that I will be able to practice IBFRT successfully and help others achieve deep healing, and combine this modality with practicing mental health therapy once I am a fully licensed LMFT.
Another new and exciting topic with which I recently became obsessed is grounding or Earthing. This happened after watching the documentary, Grounded. As a result, our whole family and even for our pets sleep on grounding sheets. We have been grounding all night long, as well as whenever we are able to bare feet onto the ground. It feels great and I am sleeping so much better, and I highly recommend everyone try it!
Our family will be taking a trip to Maine later this summer, and I am so looking forward to it. Life brings me so much joy these days, and I’m just about bursting with excitement about this trip, as well as the new deck Alan is building, and thinking about another year of homeschooling ahead of us. I am also finding great joy and satisfaction in each day of going to work, taking care of our home, and spending time with friends and family. I feel blessed beyond measure and am deeply grateful for another day in this beautiful world.
Before I sign off, here are a few recent summer 2021 highlights: