Snowy Night

by Mary Oliver Last night, an owlin the blue darktossed an indeterminate number of carefully shaped sounds intothe world, in which,a quarter of a mile away, I happenedto be standing. I couldn’t tellwhich one it was –the barred or the great-hornedship of the air –it was that distant. But, anyway,aren’t there momentsthat are better than... Continue Reading →

Study shows zero asymptomatic transmission of SARS-Cov-2

A study conducted with a sample size of 10 million people showed that people who do not have symptoms do not spread the disease. Published in Nature on Nov. 20, 2020. https://www.nature.com/articles/s41467-020-19802-w "Previous studies have shown that asymptomatic individuals infected with SARS-CoV-2 virus were infectious3, and might subsequently become symptomatic4. Compared with symptomatic patients, asymptomatic... Continue Reading →

Counting days

Eighteen days ago, at age 42 and 7 days, I underwent a bilateral mastectomy and survived the first surgery of my life. Fifty-seven days ago, I received the diagnosis of breast cancer. Two days ago, I cried for the first time about the loss of my breasts, remembering how they felt--soft and smooth and sensitive.... Continue Reading →

Coronavirus

Yesterday we started staying home because of the coronavirus situation. Schools are closed, Alan is home, my company is moving to mostly phone sessions. We are being asked to practice social distancing and stay home as much as possible, and of course, wash hands and stay home if we're sick. The world is in a... Continue Reading →

Peace, finally.

The waters have settled and there is peace in my heart. There was a long period of darkness and intense suffering at times, but it's passed now. Feeling the feelings and then letting them go was the only thing to do, and it seemed to finally allow the release to happen. Today was the first... Continue Reading →

100% full

Almost 11 years after starting this blog, 100% of the free space for photos has been filled. To add more space requires $48 per year. That seems like a pretty big commitment if it were to continue forever. So, it seems we're at a crossroad, WordPress and me. I'd like to leave this blog in... Continue Reading →

Buddhist meditation

“Breathing in, I calm body and mind. Breathing out, I smile. Dwelling in the present moment I know this is the only moment.” ― Thich Nhat Hanh, Being Peace

Chaos and turbulence and unconditional love

Writing here has felt self-indulgent lately. It's not necessarily helpful to others for me to write about pain here, but rather, it burdens them. I don't want to bring down the few precious people who read this blog. My words, however insignificant, are putting something, en energy, out into the world. So I've been thinking:... Continue Reading →

Peace Prayer

Prayer of St. Francis Lord, make me an instrument of Thy peace:where there is hatred, let me sow love;where there is injury, pardon;where there is doubt, faith;where there is despair, hope;where there is darkness, light;where there is sadness, joy.  O divine Master, grant that I may not so much seekto be consoled as to console,to... Continue Reading →

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