Yesterday we started staying home because of the coronavirus situation. Schools are closed, Alan is home, my company is moving to mostly phone sessions. We are being asked to practice social distancing and stay home as much as possible, and of course, wash hands and stay home if we're sick. The world is in a... Continue Reading →
Peace, finally.
The waters have settled and there is peace in my heart. There was a long period of darkness and intense suffering at times, but it's passed now. Feeling the feelings and then letting them go was the only thing to do, and it seemed to finally allow the release to happen. Today was the first... Continue Reading →
100% full
Almost 11 years after starting this blog, 100% of the free space for photos has been filled. To add more space requires $48 per year. That seems like a pretty big commitment if it were to continue forever. So, it seems we're at a crossroad, WordPress and me. I'd like to leave this blog in... Continue Reading →
Still lost
I've been sick for seven days with what began as viral pneumonia and has transpired into something bacterial, so I'm just a mess of wheezing and coughing and pain. There is so much pain in my throat that it's almost intolerable. I am running out of coping skills and mental resilience. I resisted taking antibiotics... Continue Reading →
Mercury is in retrograde for the last time this year. Thank God.
Many posts on this site have been written during Mercury in Retrograde, or MiR, as they call it. It's some non-scientific fluff that I like to follow and assign meaning to, because somehow it makes sense to me. This MiR cycle lasts until November 20th. There is a great deal of inner turmoil (more than... Continue Reading →
Summer is (almost) here!
Spring came and went, and summer vacation is here. Here in Minnesota, the temps reached 91 degrees Fahrenheit today, which certainly made it feel like summer. Earlier this week the girls and I visited the scultpure garden (photo below). That day also happened to be my 41st birthday. A short while back, Alan surprised us... Continue Reading →
Hello
April is almost over. I got my nose pierced last weekend--a milestone of sorts. I've wanted a nostril piercing since I was a teen, but never thought my nose or face were "good enough" for such a thing. And then suddenly, I just did it--because I wanted to. And, I love it. A few days... Continue Reading →
I am not an all-bad person: An epiphany from chocolate cake
Today, my mom and dad came over for a few hours to spend time with my girls. I had a couple of hours off in the middle of the day, so I dropped by home to spend time with all of them. My mom had baked a cake with Anna, the recipe shown below, and... Continue Reading →
Another year
With just two days left of this year, my heart is contemplative and nostalgic. 2018 was a year of change and challenge for me and probably many others in the world. I wonder what 2019 will bring for the world, for our country, for my family, for myself. We can never know, and this terrifies... Continue Reading →
A bit of clarity and the gift of broken-ness
Mercury is direct again and with it comes a little more peace and clarity than the previous three weeks delivered. This is a relief and has me feeling better about life and myself in general. However, it's not all figured out yet. The journey goes on. Since last night when Mercury went direct, I have... Continue Reading →