One year

One year ago today, I received my initial diagnosis of breast cancer, ductal carcinoma in-situ, a non-invasive form of breast cancer in my left breast. Initially, the news was not that bad. It was the least harmful form of cancer and was highly treatable. I underwent a core biopsy, called my family and friends to... Continue Reading →

Baloney detection

Wanted to share this great article from Psychology Today on how to be an intelligent consumer of media and how to get beyond our own biases/ beliefs to access what is actually true. If I were still posting on Facebook, I would share it there, but would likely be told by at least one or... Continue Reading →

Counting days

Eighteen days ago, at age 42 and 7 days, I underwent a bilateral mastectomy and survived the first surgery of my life. Fifty-seven days ago, I received the diagnosis of breast cancer. Two days ago, I cried for the first time about the loss of my breasts, remembering how they felt--soft and smooth and sensitive.... Continue Reading →

Buddhist meditation

“Breathing in, I calm body and mind. Breathing out, I smile. Dwelling in the present moment I know this is the only moment.” ― Thich Nhat Hanh, Being Peace

Chaos and turbulence and unconditional love

Writing here has felt self-indulgent lately. It's not necessarily helpful to others for me to write about pain here, but rather, it burdens them. I don't want to bring down the few precious people who read this blog. My words, however insignificant, are putting something, en energy, out into the world. So I've been thinking:... Continue Reading →

Peace Prayer

Prayer of St. Francis Lord, make me an instrument of Thy peace:where there is hatred, let me sow love;where there is injury, pardon;where there is doubt, faith;where there is despair, hope;where there is darkness, light;where there is sadness, joy.  O divine Master, grant that I may not so much seekto be consoled as to console,to... Continue Reading →

Breakthrough

Along with the other resolutions posted the other day, some other ones have crept in. These are letting go and surrendering to life, and ultimately, surrendering to God. This means letting go of my need to control everything, and the belief that I even can control everything. Because, I can't. I control nothing. Surrender. Letting... Continue Reading →

A new year (almost)

Anna came down with a very sore throat and fever today, so my guess is we'll lay pretty low for New Year's Eve. Normally around this time of year, I feel pretty excited about the prospect of a new year, a fresh start, and making new year's resolutions. Although I rarely keep my resolutions, that... Continue Reading →

Inner work

As a part of the ongoing inner work and also re-joining Facebook, I've realized more fully that there are a lot of addictive tendencies I experience from day to day. My endless struggle seems to be maintaining focus and staying on the straight and narrow path. To me, this path is taking care of my... Continue Reading →

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