Buddhist meditation

“Breathing in, I calm body and mind. Breathing out, I smile. Dwelling in the present moment I know this is the only moment.” ― Thich Nhat Hanh, Being Peace

Chaos and turbulence and unconditional love

Writing here has felt self-indulgent lately. It's not necessarily helpful to others for me to write about pain here, but rather, it burdens them. I don't want to bring down the few precious people who read this blog. My words, however insignificant, are putting something, en energy, out into the world. So I've been thinking:... Continue Reading →

Peace Prayer

Prayer of St. Francis Lord, make me an instrument of Thy peace:where there is hatred, let me sow love;where there is injury, pardon;where there is doubt, faith;where there is despair, hope;where there is darkness, light;where there is sadness, joy.  O divine Master, grant that I may not so much seekto be consoled as to console,to... Continue Reading →

Breakthrough

Along with the other resolutions posted the other day, some other ones have crept in. These are letting go and surrendering to life, and ultimately, surrendering to God. This means letting go of my need to control everything, and the belief that I even can control everything. Because, I can't. I control nothing. Surrender. Letting... Continue Reading →

Happy New Year!

Things are so much better in my world since the new year arrived, probably thanks to a few little changes. Here are my resolutions for this year: Exercise every day Start each day with a grateful heart, a positive attitude, and loving intentions Don't eat sugar Have more fun It took one day to feel... Continue Reading →

A new year (almost)

Anna came down with a very sore throat and fever today, so my guess is we'll lay pretty low for New Year's Eve. Normally around this time of year, I feel pretty excited about the prospect of a new year, a fresh start, and making new year's resolutions. Although I rarely keep my resolutions, that... Continue Reading →

Inner work

As a part of the ongoing inner work and also re-joining Facebook, I've realized more fully that there are a lot of addictive tendencies I experience from day to day. My endless struggle seems to be maintaining focus and staying on the straight and narrow path. To me, this path is taking care of my... Continue Reading →

Good again

I'm feeling a lot better now. I slept through the night last night without coughing, and this is a major milestone. It means Alan can come back into our bed and things can be normal again. I go back to work next week. I am grateful for Alan, the girls, my friend Lish, my mom... Continue Reading →

A day makes a difference

What a difference a day makes. Every hour I feel better than the last. I was up and about all day today for the first time since before Thanksgiving. I can talk normally again and am coughing a bit less. Still winded and a bit fatigued, but I feel happier and more alive. I think... Continue Reading →

Getting better

Today I am up and about. Despite being short of breath and fatigued, it is good to be out of bed. Physically, I've turned the corner. Emotionally, I'm still pretty stuck in a painful and negative place. Today it's anger that's rearing its head. It has been waiting to come out, I guess--trapped in my... Continue Reading →

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